What If?

I am having problems sleeping. It's been hours since I came to bed; I have read through three short books in the Bible, yet no sleep. And just as I start finally drifting off to sleep, these questions come to mind and I am suddenly wide awake!

Here are the questions that just stole my sleep.

What if one day you woke up and realised none of it was real?

Not the life you remember, not the people, and not even the version of yourself you've spent years becoming.

What if the last twenty years were just a story your mind created? You know, some elaborate illusion you believed so deeply that it became your reality? Then, you suddenly "awaken"; discovering you'd been trapped inside a delusion the entire time; living inside a world that only existed in your head.

Or worse still, what if your "life" was never yours at all?

What if you were taken years ago, somewhere beyond your understanding, and everything since then has only been a simulation? A carefully constructed experience while your real body lies unconscious on some cold metallic table, somewhere impossibly far away; while unseen beings study your reactions like an experiment.

And then imagine the moment it all breaks.

The moment you realise every memory, every heartbreak, every achievement, every friendship; was artificial.

What if reality is only convincing because we've never seen anything outside of it?

. . .

"My husband says I live too much in my head. Meanwhile, I'm over here questioning the nature of reality at 2 a.m. 🙃"